Below are the 8 most recent journal entries recorded in youre_under's LiveJournal:

Sunday, January 8th, 2006
2:10 am	okay... well... i need to apologise to lucia for some of the things i said...i didnt mean it all....but some of the things she said did annoy me:)...sorry lucia xx im pretty confused at the moment...dont know whats going off in my head,... Current Mood: tired Current Music: rage against the machine - renegades of funk (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 4th, 2006
5:20 pm	...to further the discussion shes a drama queen. everything is worse than it actually is 'belly ache' turns into a life threatening disease... non of this will seem relevant. BUT!!!! it kinda is... whenever it was going good...she'd panic and think woo 'what if...'? then we'd end. and now that shes finally told me that she doesnt think she's ready for a relationship...im in bad books for sayin that were done for good bcos im not waiting until shes changed her mind.:S and yes i am angry and upset about it so it will seem asif im being nasty now to get back at her...well kinda lol but..every time she finished things with me....it was her that was 'hurting' and then she writes an entry sayin she loves me, she thinks about me all the time ...blah blah blah..its all for attention...if she really felt that way she'd want to be with me. DRAMA QUEEN! Current Mood: rejected Current Music: fuck..im dead - slowly raped with a chainsaw (1 Comment |Comment on this)
12:38 am	hmmm well....lucia has told me that she likes me but...isnt ready for a relationship. and so from finally hearing this..i said to her that its done for good because im obviously not gonna spend even more time waiting. NOW im the bad guy for sayin that it's done...fuckin hell. she posted an update with 'depressed' as her mood sayin what i said about it being done. she didnt mention the fact that she'd just told me that although she likes me she doesnt want a relationship. and as ive said that im not waiting and we're done...i become the baddy..what the fucks with that. i should have known from what happened with swaz that i shouldnt have bothered with her..:@ Current Mood: confused Current Music: call of serenity - im home (Comment on this)
Monday, November 28th, 2005
10:09 pm	rawr welllll i fucked that up again....tried to get lucia back with me...haha what an idiot. as i expected ...she was having non of it... she said "i want to be with u but i want to be single" errrm if she wanted to be with me she'f be with me...i think its a nice way of saying thanks...but no thanks.:< anyway it was now or never so it looks asif its never.... Current Mood: rejected Current Music: comets - less magic.... (Comment on this)
Monday, November 21st, 2005
6:18 pm	mmm welll.....ive told lucia how i feel and i can do nothing more....im pretty into forgettin her and getting over it all and it feels pretty cool not to be hung up about it so much anymore. i still want her loads but i gotta accept what she wants. on a lighter note..im fairly fond of some1 new. shes only just finished with her boyfriend and he seems a cool guy so im not keen on upsetting folk also shes dead upset about it. for now though i think its best to get head down n get back to normal Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: Remembering Never - Clearer sky (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 16th, 2005
6:02 pm	: well lucia ended last night. im pretty fucking gutted. i knew she was going to do it so i made it look asif i couldnt give a shit by agreeing with her and stuff. i think alot of it is the age difference n her not ready for a relationship like i want so. i cant force her to anything. its all pissed me off a bit. bag haha Current Mood: sad Current Music: From Autumn to Ashes - Milligram Smile (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, November 14th, 2005
11:41 pm	on a lighter note... ...i started back at my old school today...was pretty cool seeing my old friends and that but i have to wear a shirt n tie:| haha! shirt, tie, trousers...and converse!!!:P taken PE, Film Studies and Theology....Theology is fucking solid and crazy...i dont get it. school is still shit but i need to get me head down n do sum fucking work...uni needs me!!:> Current Mood: weird Current Music: Trivium - A Gunshot to the head of trepadition (1 Comment |Comment on this)
11:28 pm	hmm... okay...so ive been with my girlfriend now for a month or 2 and we've had one slight upset a few weeks back but since we got back together everything has been pretty perfect. tonight was ace at hers...all until; about 25 mins before i had to go suddenly she started to ignore me n turned her back on me until i had to leave. before then everything had been so amazing and i was just like 'what the fuck...?'. i hope its just me thinkin the worst and worryin bout it too much but it feels shit cos ive text her and asked her whether anything was the matter but she hasnt replied and i know shes got credit....maybe she just wants a little bit of space...who knows Current Mood: worried Current Music: P! At The Disco - i write sins not tragedies (Comment on this)